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Then in the related videos they had a pic of Stella who is played by Ruby Rose. Now the pic is small, but I was drawn to the on point hair, so I clicked on it. All I can say is dayum, the woman is attractive.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EYou know the type of attractive where you state, \"I'm not gay but if I was......\" And don't play like you don't know what I'm talking about. We've all agreed that Angelina Jolie is gorgeous, but I think what sets Ruby Rose, and even Angie, apart from other gorgeous women is the \"fuck it, this is me\" vibe. I'm not talking the Rhianna \"fuck you, I'm me\" vibe, but the \"I'm doing me and it has nothing to do with you\" vibe.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EIt doesn't beg to be noticed, it just is. So yes, I got a girl crush on Ruby Rose and I'm cool with it. If anything, she's an inspiration to not let society dictate who and what you are, just walk your own path.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/rubyroseofficial.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/06\/videos.png\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" src=\"http:\/\/rubyroseofficial.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/06\/videos.png\" \/\u003E\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/insidejamarifox.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/06\/628-Ruby-Rose-April-2014-Instagram.jpg\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" src=\"http:\/\/insidejamarifox.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/06\/628-Ruby-Rose-April-2014-Instagram.jpg\" height=\"197\" width=\"320\" \/\u003E\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EImage Credit: \u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/www.reddit.com\/r\/rubyrose\/?ref=readnext\" target=\"_blank\"\u003EReddit\u003C\/a\u003E, \u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/rubyroseofficial.com\/photos\/modeling\/\" target=\"_blank\"\u003ERuby Rose\u003C\/a\u003E, \u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/insidejamarifox.com\/ruby-rose-got-all-the-girls-checking-another-box\/\" target=\"_blank\"\u003EInside Jamari Fox\u003C\/a\u003E"},"link":[{"rel":"replies","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/feeds\/9116566064139606178\/comments\/default","title":"Post Comments"},{"rel":"replies","type":"text/html","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/comment.g?blogID=8580635660349746755\u0026postID=9116566064139606178\u0026isPopup=true","title":"0 Comments"},{"rel":"edit","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/feeds\/8580635660349746755\/posts\/default\/9116566064139606178"},{"rel":"self","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/feeds\/8580635660349746755\/posts\/default\/9116566064139606178"},{"rel":"alternate","type":"text/html","href":"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/2015\/07\/girl-crush-ruby-rose.html","title":"Girl Crush - Ruby Rose"}],"author":[{"name":{"$t":"Kimolisa"},"uri":{"$t":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/profile\/16624029898830661332"},"email":{"$t":"noreply@blogger.com"},"gd$image":{"rel":"http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail","width":"16","height":"16","src":"https:\/\/img1.blogblog.com\/img\/b16-rounded.gif"}}],"media$thumbnail":{"xmlns$media":"http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/","url":"http:\/\/2.bp.blogspot.com\/-h3ntB0V0lkA\/VLtYX7ABUBI\/AAAAAAAAZVg\/fyK89dRfXeI\/s72-c\/RubyRose_OITNB4.png","height":"72","width":"72"},"thr$total":{"$t":"0"}},{"id":{"$t":"tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8580635660349746755.post-6265157188739363059"},"published":{"$t":"2015-06-28T09:22:00.001-04:00"},"updated":{"$t":"2015-06-28T10:03:22.245-04:00"},"category":[{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Becoming Venus"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Goddess"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Self Love"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Self Respect"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Special"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Unique"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Venus"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Woman"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Womanhood"}],"title":{"type":"text","$t":"Becoming Venus - An Introduction"},"content":{"type":"html","$t":"\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"https:\/\/upload.wikimedia.org\/wikipedia\/commons\/8\/86\/Giorgione_-_Sleeping_Venus_-_Google_Art_Project_2.jpg\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" height=\"394\" src=\"https:\/\/upload.wikimedia.org\/wikipedia\/commons\/8\/86\/Giorgione_-_Sleeping_Venus_-_Google_Art_Project_2.jpg\" width=\"640\" \/\u003E\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EOf late I've been thinking of doing this series of post called \u003Ci\u003EBecoming Venus\u003C\/i\u003E. In part it is my journey in becoming a woman and in part it is a guide for my daughter (when I have her) on her journey in becoming a woman. Among many things, it will visit the themes of self love and acceptance, finding one's path in life and tapping into one's inner wisdom.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EI know there are many blogs that speak on these themes and I questioned if I should even add my voice to the chorus. Then I figure what the hey, why not? If anything it will clarify my runaway thoughts and give structure to what I would share with my mini me or myself when I was younger.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Ch4\u003EWhy Venus\u003C\/h4\u003EWhenever I think of the goddess Venus, I think of this image,\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/www.ancient.eu\/uploads\/images\/711.jpg?v=1431035676\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" src=\"http:\/\/www.ancient.eu\/uploads\/images\/711.jpg?v=1431035676\" height=\"409\" width=\"640\" \/\u003E\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: justify;\"\u003EGranted this painting depicted the female body of that time as the ideal, and truth be told it is a true depiction of the female body today, despite what fashion magazines tell us about how we are supposed to look. The reality is we are supposed to have some flesh on our bones, a little pot of a belly and it does not take away from our femininity or our ability to be desirable.\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: justify;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003EThen there is the mythology of Venus, according to \u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/www.ancient.eu\/venus\/\" target=\"_blank\"\u003EAncient History Encyclopedia\u003C\/a\u003E,\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: center;\"\u003EIn Roman mythology, Venus was the goddess of love, sex, beauty, and fertility. She was the Roman counterpart to the Greek Aphrodite.  However, Roman Venus had many abilities beyond the Greek Aphrodite; she  was a goddess of victory, fertility, and even prostitution. \u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EIn this respect, becoming Venus is about cultivating love, embracing one's sexuality, beauty and fertility, as well as being victorious in one's endeavours. All of these is what makes a woman a woman, in my estimation anyway. I am all for equal rights, but not to the degree that we lose what makes us different from the other sex.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003ENow I know that there are those who are not interested in cultivating their feminine wiles, those who accept themselves as they are, and to them, I say \"Do you\". But there are some of us who were just wondering around in the wilderness trying to figure out how to be a woman and\/or trying to develop into the woman we were meant to be. Not a woman sculpted by the outer world but one developed by the inner being.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cul\u003E\u003Cli\u003EA woman who understands and loves her body,\u0026nbsp;\u003C\/li\u003E\u003Cli\u003EA woman who continues to grow and develop mentally and spiritually.\u003C\/li\u003E\u003Cli\u003EA woman who meets and exceeds her expectations for herself\u003C\/li\u003E\u003Cli\u003EA woman who knows her strengths and weaknesses\u003C\/li\u003E\u003Cli\u003EA woman who can nurture and support her significant other and children, ensuring that they are assets to society, not liabilities\u003C\/li\u003E\u003C\/ul\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003ENow I don't have all the answers, I don't think anyone does. I'm still on my journey, and although in society, I am considered a woman, it does not mean that I am one entirely. There is still room to grow, to become the kind of woman that is not only beautiful, inside and out, but wise and confident. That is my personal aim. That is when I will become Venus.\u0026nbsp; \u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003Epic sources: \u003Ca href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Rokeby_Venus\" target=\"_blank\"\u003E1\u003C\/a\u003E, \u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/www.ancient.eu\/venus\/\" target=\"_blank\"\u003E2\u003C\/a\u003E"},"link":[{"rel":"replies","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/feeds\/6265157188739363059\/comments\/default","title":"Post Comments"},{"rel":"replies","type":"text/html","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/comment.g?blogID=8580635660349746755\u0026postID=6265157188739363059\u0026isPopup=true","title":"0 Comments"},{"rel":"edit","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/feeds\/8580635660349746755\/posts\/default\/6265157188739363059"},{"rel":"self","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/feeds\/8580635660349746755\/posts\/default\/6265157188739363059"},{"rel":"alternate","type":"text/html","href":"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/2015\/06\/becoming-venus-introduction.html","title":"Becoming Venus - An Introduction"}],"author":[{"name":{"$t":"Kimolisa"},"uri":{"$t":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/profile\/16624029898830661332"},"email":{"$t":"noreply@blogger.com"},"gd$image":{"rel":"http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail","width":"16","height":"16","src":"https:\/\/img1.blogblog.com\/img\/b16-rounded.gif"}}],"thr$total":{"$t":"0"}},{"id":{"$t":"tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8580635660349746755.post-4389166562574106276"},"published":{"$t":"2012-02-19T19:39:00.000-05:00"},"updated":{"$t":"2012-02-19T20:07:02.312-05:00"},"category":[{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Single"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Why Am I Single"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Why Am I Single?"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Woman"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"women"}],"title":{"type":"text","$t":"Why Am I Single #12"},"content":{"type":"html","$t":"\u003Cspan style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003E\u003Cb\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: large;\"\u003EAnswer: Me\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/b\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/drhealthshow.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/QOW-3.21-woman-looking-in-mirror.jpg\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" src=\"http:\/\/drhealthshow.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/01\/QOW-3.21-woman-looking-in-mirror.jpg\" \/\u003E\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: xx-small;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/drhealthshow.com\/\" target=\"_blank\"\u003Esource\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: left;\"\u003EFirst things first, this is the last post of this series. I feel like it has run it's course and has been instrumental in my personal journey of becoming a better person. It's so easy to point outside of oneself and lay blame on one's circumstance - that is why so and so is like that, he\/she is why this happened to me. At the end of the day, we are responsible for the life we live and it is up to us to make it a life worth living.\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: left;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: left;\"\u003EPerhaps, I'm growing up. Perhaps, I'm getting wiser and things are at last clicking into place. Whatever the case, I see it as my mandate to live an awesome life and do the things I love. Last night, I had one of the best sleeps ever and in the middle of it, one thought shot into my mind:\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: left;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Cb style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: x-large;\"\u003ECommit to having a great life.\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/b\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: left;\"\u003EThis is powerful for me because I'm the sort that can flip flop on small decisions and a handful of big ones, but when I make up my mind to do something, consider it done. Most likely, I'll print out the statement and put it next to my bathroom mirror and start every day with that affirmation. I'm already feeling results because I see a change in my personality.\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: left;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv style=\"text-align: left;\"\u003EGrowing up, I've always held back because others would have a negative view point on things I enjoy:\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cul\u003E\u003Cli\u003ECooking\u003C\/li\u003E\u003Cli\u003EMake up\u003C\/li\u003E\u003Cli\u003EDancing\u003C\/li\u003E\u003Cli\u003EUsing my body - exercise etal\u003C\/li\u003E\u003Cli\u003EAlternative rock \u0026amp; hard rock\u0026nbsp;\u003C\/li\u003E\u003Cli\u003EJazz \u003C\/li\u003E\u003C\/ul\u003EMy thinking was if they had negative reaction to what I liked, then I better not do anything I liked to do. The thing is their negative views are based on their lives and their inability to look beyond their existence. I've gotten so used to people governing what I did that I would turn to others to guide my life. The truth is they have their own lives to live. They can easily muck up your life with their good intentions. They don't have your perspective on life.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EAlso you can give only so much of yourself and people are not looking to see if they are taking too much, they view it as unlimited resource. The thing is when you give so much to others, eventually there will be none for you.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EAt the end of the day, the reason why I'm single is I didn't make the concerted effort to not be single. I didn't make the choice to want to be in a relationship. I focused so much on the outside that I didn't work on the inside and making myself the kind of person I would date and have a relationship with.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EI'll be honest, I think I'm rambling. LOL! I can go on and on with these random thoughts but I'll leave you with this:\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/27.media.tumblr.com\/tumblr_lx28wzqyAV1qzm8nqo1_500.jpg\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" height=\"400\" src=\"http:\/\/27.media.tumblr.com\/tumblr_lx28wzqyAV1qzm8nqo1_500.jpg\" width=\"400\" \/\u003E\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E... and I love the wild thing in me.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Ciframe allowfullscreen=\"\" frameborder=\"0\" height=\"360\" src=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/8m10Ypl2pDA\" width=\"480\"\u003E\u003C\/iframe\u003E"},"link":[{"rel":"replies","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/feeds\/4389166562574106276\/comments\/default","title":"Post Comments"},{"rel":"replies","type":"text/html","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/comment.g?blogID=8580635660349746755\u0026postID=4389166562574106276\u0026isPopup=true","title":"1 Comments"},{"rel":"edit","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/feeds\/8580635660349746755\/posts\/default\/4389166562574106276"},{"rel":"self","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/feeds\/8580635660349746755\/posts\/default\/4389166562574106276"},{"rel":"alternate","type":"text/html","href":"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/2012\/02\/why-am-i-single-12.html","title":"Why Am I Single #12"}],"author":[{"name":{"$t":"Kimolisa"},"uri":{"$t":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/profile\/16624029898830661332"},"email":{"$t":"noreply@blogger.com"},"gd$image":{"rel":"http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail","width":"16","height":"16","src":"https:\/\/img1.blogblog.com\/img\/b16-rounded.gif"}}],"media$thumbnail":{"xmlns$media":"http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/","url":"https:\/\/img.youtube.com\/vi\/8m10Ypl2pDA\/default.jpg","height":"72","width":"72"},"thr$total":{"$t":"1"}},{"id":{"$t":"tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8580635660349746755.post-2518722736170485090"},"published":{"$t":"2012-02-12T18:17:00.000-05:00"},"updated":{"$t":"2012-02-12T18:17:27.492-05:00"},"category":[{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Single"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Why Am I Single"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Why Am I Single?"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Woman"}],"title":{"type":"text","$t":"Why Am I Single #11"},"content":{"type":"html","$t":"\u003Cb\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: large;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003EAnswer #11: I wasn't being myself in the relationship\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/b\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/3.bp.blogspot.com\/_gW5iOK2GWj4\/S65kreE13BI\/AAAAAAAAAVg\/JsETb8DcKSo\/s1600\/portrait,cool,behind,the,mask,girl,mask,woman-4846e57d865357285b608915deaa5729_h.jpg\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" src=\"http:\/\/3.bp.blogspot.com\/_gW5iOK2GWj4\/S65kreE13BI\/AAAAAAAAAVg\/JsETb8DcKSo\/s1600\/portrait,cool,behind,the,mask,girl,mask,woman-4846e57d865357285b608915deaa5729_h.jpg\" \/\u003E\u0026nbsp;\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: xx-small;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/breathtakingwords.blogspot.com\/\" target=\"_blank\"\u003Esource\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E \u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: large;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: black;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: small;\"\u003EI blame a lot on my childhood issues, but I'm only now claiming responsibility for my life. I now recognize that I had gotten it all confused. I believed that when it came to relationships, I had to become what the other person wanted.\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003Cb\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: large;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/b\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: large;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: black;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: small;\"\u003E God only knows where I got this belief. It's as though it was programed into my brain without me knowing it and like everything else in life I went along with the programming.\u0026nbsp;\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: large;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: black;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: small;\"\u003EIt is only when I really sat down and thought about it, I was so focused on what others thought of me and trying not to be judged that I didn't learn what made me happy. What makes me happy, in some way, defines who I am. I guess you can say my growth was stunted by my accepting that life does not include happiness.\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: large;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: black;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: small;\"\u003E \u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: large;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: black;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: small;\"\u003ERecently I looked back at my love life and I realized that I was not myself with any of the men in my life. I'm figuring I wasn't with myself with a lot of people. In fact, it is only recently that I tapped into the person I really enjoy being. I remember being on the phone and not knowing what to say or trying to figure out what I should say or how I should act.\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: large;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: black;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: small;\"\u003ENow I have..... what is the word? accepted? discovered? experienced an epiphany that what would initially draw a person to you is your looks, but it is your personality that would keep them. The sad thing is I knew this in theory but it didn't click. Most likely because I didn't have a fully developed personality to speak of.\u0026nbsp;\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: large;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: black;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: small;\"\u003EIt's one's personality that keeps a person riveted to them.\u0026nbsp; \u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/span\u003EIt's one's personality that makes a person fall in love with them. And when I say personality, I mean the little quirky things that makes you you, like the fact that you like Punch soda (an Antiguan thing) or you cry at sappy movies or you call in the mornings just to say hi and wish them a good day. And these things are things you would do naturally as opposed to over-thinking and over-analyzing (I over-analyze a little too much).\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EIt had also dawned on me that not being yourself just does nothing for a relationship. I mean there you are being someone else and that just takes energy away from being true to yourself and loving yourself. It also cheats the person out of knowing the awesome person that you are. Plus, it is also so easy to end up resenting the person because they are so into the person you are trying to be instead of being into the true you.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EWhy does everything seem so clear when I'm writing these blog post, ugh.... *smh*\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cb style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003EI am happy to report that this particular reason for my being single is being addressed, but what about you, have you ever not acted like yourself in a relationship? How did it make you feel?\u003C\/b\u003E"},"link":[{"rel":"replies","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/feeds\/2518722736170485090\/comments\/default","title":"Post Comments"},{"rel":"replies","type":"text/html","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/comment.g?blogID=8580635660349746755\u0026postID=2518722736170485090\u0026isPopup=true","title":"0 Comments"},{"rel":"edit","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/feeds\/8580635660349746755\/posts\/default\/2518722736170485090"},{"rel":"self","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/feeds\/8580635660349746755\/posts\/default\/2518722736170485090"},{"rel":"alternate","type":"text/html","href":"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/2012\/02\/why-am-i-single-11.html","title":"Why Am I Single #11"}],"author":[{"name":{"$t":"Kimolisa"},"uri":{"$t":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/profile\/16624029898830661332"},"email":{"$t":"noreply@blogger.com"},"gd$image":{"rel":"http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail","width":"16","height":"16","src":"https:\/\/img1.blogblog.com\/img\/b16-rounded.gif"}}],"media$thumbnail":{"xmlns$media":"http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/","url":"http:\/\/3.bp.blogspot.com\/_gW5iOK2GWj4\/S65kreE13BI\/AAAAAAAAAVg\/JsETb8DcKSo\/s72-c\/portrait,cool,behind,the,mask,girl,mask,woman-4846e57d865357285b608915deaa5729_h.jpg","height":"72","width":"72"},"thr$total":{"$t":"0"}},{"id":{"$t":"tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8580635660349746755.post-4158435707269989983"},"published":{"$t":"2012-02-05T19:23:00.000-05:00"},"updated":{"$t":"2012-02-05T19:36:46.355-05:00"},"category":[{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Single"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Why Am I Single"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Why Am I Single?"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Woman"}],"title":{"type":"text","$t":"Why Am I Single #10"},"content":{"type":"html","$t":"\u003Cb style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: large;\"\u003EAnswer #10: I don't know what I want\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/b\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/i2.listal.com\/image\/1101565\/936full-clueless-screenshot.jpg\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" height=\"225\" src=\"http:\/\/i2.listal.com\/image\/1101565\/936full-clueless-screenshot.jpg\" width=\"400\" \/\u003E\u0026nbsp;\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/www.listal.com\/viewimage\/1101565h\" target=\"_blank\"\u003Esource \u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003EHonest to Betsy, I don't know what I want both in a relationship or a man. I had planned to do this post before I read astluce's comment to the last WAIS post, but she brought it home for me. You know how you can know the theory of something but you still don't follow through. I told you I was book smart, not street smart. So where do I start?\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003EGrowing up I knew that I wanted to get married, correction I knew that it is expected to be married but because of my \u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/2011\/12\/why-am-i-single-2.html\" target=\"_blank\"\u003Echildhood issues\u003C\/a\u003E that view point got screwed up. The thing is I do want to be in a relationship, I do want to be married but I never thought much about the mechanics of doing so. So I would think to myself and say to the universe \"I want a man\" and out of the blue, a man appears. Strangely enough, I never made the connection between my request and the appearance of a man.\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003ESo I would get to know the man and it just wasn't right. Yes, he was a man but something was missing. To say I've disappointed my share of men is an understatement. Then I started to take notice of the Law of Attraction and reading articles about meeting \"the one\" like \u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/thinksimplenow.com\/relationships\/how-to-find-true-love\/\" target=\"_blank\"\u003Ethis one\u003C\/a\u003E. I would follow them half-hardheartedly and I would get half ass results.\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003EFor instance, recently I wrote a list of things I wanted in a partner. The things on the list were emotional\/character traits - confidence, good humour, great conversationalist. I typed it up, printed it, laminated it and put it beside the mirror in my bathroom so I would see it everyday. I would say less than a week later a man appeared and I swear, it was as though he sneaked into my apartment and looked at my list. Was he right for me?\u0026nbsp;\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/26.media.tumblr.com\/tumblr_lupn9yCo8C1r3ovdbo1_250.gif\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" src=\"http:\/\/26.media.tumblr.com\/tumblr_lupn9yCo8C1r3ovdbo1_250.gif\" \/\u003E\u0026nbsp;\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: xx-small;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/iced-gif.tumblr.com\/\" target=\"_blank\"\u003ESource \u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003EHe was missing an important thing - chemistry. Granted the list was short and was just generic qualities, looking at it now, I have to sit down and really write a thorough list of what I want and need in a life partner and from a relationship. Also this is not relegated to just relationships, but also life. If you don't state what you want clearly, life, the universe, God is going to give you whatever and I doubt it will make you happy. No, I can vouch for that, it will not make you happy.\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003ENow, I want to say that I've got this list started and I'm almost done but I would be lying. For some strange reason I'm a little afraid of the magic. I guess it's because it shows what is possible and what I am capable of doing. It's also because part of me still thinks I'm not ready yet, I still have a little more to go in becoming the person I want to be, the person I'm supposed to be. I guess by creating the partner list, I will be taking a good look at myself and there will be some serious questions I will have to answer. \u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003ELooks like I have to do what I got to do and really grow up and go after what I want. I'm already on the road to self love, understanding my self worth and for the first time in a long while I'm doing things I enjoy, I'm on the edge of a great change and I think this is just one more thing to a better life.\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: left;\"\u003EAlright, this post has gone all new age-y, basically be real with yourself, know what you want and ask for and go after what you want.\u003C\/div\u003E"},"link":[{"rel":"replies","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/feeds\/4158435707269989983\/comments\/default","title":"Post Comments"},{"rel":"replies","type":"text/html","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/comment.g?blogID=8580635660349746755\u0026postID=4158435707269989983\u0026isPopup=true","title":"1 Comments"},{"rel":"edit","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/feeds\/8580635660349746755\/posts\/default\/4158435707269989983"},{"rel":"self","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/feeds\/8580635660349746755\/posts\/default\/4158435707269989983"},{"rel":"alternate","type":"text/html","href":"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/2012\/02\/why-am-i-single-10.html","title":"Why Am I Single #10"}],"author":[{"name":{"$t":"Kimolisa"},"uri":{"$t":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/profile\/16624029898830661332"},"email":{"$t":"noreply@blogger.com"},"gd$image":{"rel":"http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail","width":"16","height":"16","src":"https:\/\/img1.blogblog.com\/img\/b16-rounded.gif"}}],"thr$total":{"$t":"1"}},{"id":{"$t":"tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8580635660349746755.post-4535707340689790704"},"published":{"$t":"2012-01-29T20:29:00.000-05:00"},"updated":{"$t":"2012-01-29T20:29:08.174-05:00"},"category":[{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Single"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Why Am I Single"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Why Am I Single?"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"Woman"},{"scheme":"http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#","term":"women"}],"title":{"type":"text","$t":"Why Am I Single #9.1"},"content":{"type":"html","$t":"\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/3.bp.blogspot.com\/-I0A-TwgTUic\/TVhMWNmUzXI\/AAAAAAAAACE\/ajexio8yoNM\/s1600\/superwoman1.jpg\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" src=\"http:\/\/3.bp.blogspot.com\/-I0A-TwgTUic\/TVhMWNmUzXI\/AAAAAAAAACE\/ajexio8yoNM\/s1600\/superwoman1.jpg\" \/\u003E\u0026nbsp;\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: xx-small;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/superwomansusan.blogspot.com\/\" target=\"_blank\"\u003Esource\u003C\/a\u003E \u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003C\/div\u003EHonestly speaking, when I wrote the last post I really wasn't expecting feedback, but boy, did I get feedback!! First of all thank you for sharing your thoughts and this is one of the times I miss college where you can get together with a bunch of friends and just chat about a given topic. I wish I could have you guys over with a large pizza and a couple bottles of wine to just talk about relationships and anything else under the sun.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EAt first, I was a little taken aback because my ways of thought were being challenged, but then it dawned on me that that actually will help me grow as an individual and not be stuck in an outdated way of thinking. Awesome!!\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003ESo let's jump in, for those who haven't read the original post, click \u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/2012\/01\/why-am-i-single-9.html\" target=\"_blank\"\u003Ehere\u003C\/a\u003E, also check out the comments they have been very insightful. Now to address the comments:\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"color: #990000; font-size: large;\"\u003E\u003Cb\u003EWhat Do Women Want?\u003C\/b\u003E\u003C\/span\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003ERobert Gibson asked a really good question, what do we as women want and to be honest some of us don't know. Society, aka the media, romance novels, Disney movies, rom com's, have given us a generic concept of what we want - tall, dark and handsome, sensitive yet masculine, blah, blah, blah - but then we have what we see in our immediate lives. Yes, a woman might be looking for a nice guy but then she sees how her single mom had to struggle and work to maintain the family without a man. She sees how to be strong and not needing a man but still expects her man to be strong and be a man because that is what society says she should expect from a man. God I don't even know if I'm making sense. LOL!\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EThe only thing, I can say is know yourself, be the best you, when you got that down pack, be on the lookout for people who got their isht together. You see, when you have two whole people who know who they are and are just enjoying life they will only enhance each others' lives instead of bringing new drama.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EAlso check out this movie, I found it back in 2009 when I started blogging and it shows one of the sides to black relationships, it's called Diary of a Tired Black Man, \u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/kimolisa.blogspot.com\/search\/label\/Diary%20of%20a%20Tired%20Black%20Man\" target=\"_blank\"\u003Ehere\u003C\/a\u003E is the link to the post I did.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cb style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: large;\"\u003ETwo Alphas in The House\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/b\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EOne of my friends from High School, astluce, pointed out that both she and her husband are Alphas. For real, this blew my mind and gave me hope. It also showed that I got sucked into the whole propaganda of men not being able to handle a strong woman. Looking back at it, I think it is the men who can't handle a strong woman that complain the most. *smh*\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EI mentioned before that I worked at a hardware store and it is only now I realize that some of those men don't know what to do with a strong woman. I know for a fact that I've toned down over the last seven years because I've seen actual fear in some men's eyes or they try to be condescending when or have the look of what should they do. Also in the construction industry down here, it's all chat and some of these men can't deliver, now I'm kinda pissed that I've changed to make others feel comfortable.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003ETruth be told (I'm going to be sappy here, I've accepted my sappiness and you should too) astluce and her husband are really a cute couple and their relationship is something to aim for. I'm just happy that they've pointed out that yes, two strong people can be together and make it work. It reminds me of the \u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/youtu.be\/mUZZFYhxeSE\" target=\"_blank\"\u003Efocus exercise\u003C\/a\u003E Tony Robbins does in his seminars where if you focus on something, you see it wherever you look and if you really focus you can see very successful, strong couples.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/heatedforest.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/03\/oprah-and-stedman.jpeg\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" height=\"268\" src=\"http:\/\/heatedforest.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/03\/oprah-and-stedman.jpeg\" width=\"400\" \/\u003E\u0026nbsp;\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: xx-small;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/heatedforest.com\/\" target=\"_blank\"\u003Esource\u003C\/a\u003E \u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/www2.2space.net\/images\/upl_newsImage\/1258261263.jpg\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" height=\"308\" src=\"http:\/\/www2.2space.net\/images\/upl_newsImage\/1258261263.jpg\" width=\"400\" \/\u003E\u0026nbsp;\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/2space.net\/\" target=\"_blank\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: xx-small;\"\u003Esource\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/a\u003E\u0026nbsp;\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/chocolatebrides.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/10\/barack_michelle_obama_love_bus.jpg\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" height=\"266\" src=\"http:\/\/chocolatebrides.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/10\/barack_michelle_obama_love_bus.jpg\" width=\"400\" \/\u003E\u0026nbsp;\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/chocolatebrides.com\/\" target=\"_blank\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: xx-small;\"\u003Esource\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/a\u003E \u003C\/div\u003E\u003Cdiv class=\"separator\" style=\"clear: both; text-align: center;\"\u003E \u003C\/div\u003EI must agree with her, though, I may not find my significant other on this rock called Wadadli, perhaps I should hang out with the Italians down at English Harbour. \"Ciao, bello!\"\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cb style=\"color: #990000;\"\u003E\u003Cspan style=\"font-size: large;\"\u003EThe Evolution of Gender Roles\u003C\/span\u003E\u003C\/b\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Ctable cellpadding=\"0\" cellspacing=\"0\" class=\"tr-caption-container\" style=\"float: right; margin-left: 1em; text-align: right;\"\u003E\u003Ctbody\u003E\u003Ctr\u003E\u003Ctd style=\"text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/blogs.villagegreen.com\/cincinnati\/files\/2010\/11\/Guy-Changing-Diaper.jpg\" imageanchor=\"1\" style=\"clear: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;\"\u003E\u003Cimg border=\"0\" height=\"200\" src=\"http:\/\/blogs.villagegreen.com\/cincinnati\/files\/2010\/11\/Guy-Changing-Diaper.jpg\" width=\"132\" \/\u003E\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/td\u003E\u003C\/tr\u003E\u003Ctr\u003E\u003Ctd class=\"tr-caption\" style=\"text-align: center;\"\u003E\u003Ca href=\"http:\/\/blogs.villagegreen.com\/\" target=\"_blank\"\u003Esource\u003C\/a\u003E\u003C\/td\u003E\u003C\/tr\u003E\u003C\/tbody\u003E\u003C\/table\u003ERobby Breadner gave me hope by stating that not men are locked into gender specific roles. I always felt that I was wrong in being able to handle my own DIY stuff. I never came to work and proudly said how I fixed my toilet or installed a light fixture. That's not something women go around gloating about, but it's nice to know that as we evolve as humans we are doing away with traditional roles and just being human, doing what needs to be done.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EThe only thing is that not all of us are evolved. There are a lot of people who hold on to old ideas because they have never worked out what would work for them as individuals. They take them on as their beliefs and when those beliefs are questioned, they fight for them like wild cats.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EThere is a lot of talk about class warfare, but has anyone ever thought about ideological warfare. The divide between the thinkers and the non-thinkers, those whose lives are based on a true understanding of themselves and their needs and those who follow any and every thing, be it the latest dance hall tune to the drug dealer they look up to. The sad thing is, in Wadadli at least, I see the latter overtaking the island and creating more.\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003E\u003Cbr \/\u003EI really appreciate the insight from the comments to the last Why Am I Single post, I think they help me to escape the labyrinth of singledom. I'm going to stop here, because this post is long enough. Buena notte, tutti."},"link":[{"rel":"replies","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/feeds\/4535707340689790704\/comments\/default","title":"Post Comments"},{"rel":"replies","type":"text/html","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/comment.g?blogID=8580635660349746755\u0026postID=4535707340689790704\u0026isPopup=true","title":"2 Comments"},{"rel":"edit","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/feeds\/8580635660349746755\/posts\/default\/4535707340689790704"},{"rel":"self","type":"application/atom+xml","href":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/feeds\/8580635660349746755\/posts\/default\/4535707340689790704"},{"rel":"alternate","type":"text/html","href":"http:\/\/asilomik.blogspot.com\/2012\/01\/why-am-i-single-91.html","title":"Why Am I Single #9.1"}],"author":[{"name":{"$t":"Kimolisa"},"uri":{"$t":"http:\/\/www.blogger.com\/profile\/16624029898830661332"},"email":{"$t":"noreply@blogger.com"},"gd$image":{"rel":"http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail","width":"16","height":"16","src":"https:\/\/img1.blogblog.com\/img\/b16-rounded.gif"}}],"media$thumbnail":{"xmlns$media":"http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/","url":"http:\/\/3.bp.blogspot.com\/-I0A-TwgTUic\/TVhMWNmUzXI\/AAAAAAAAACE\/ajexio8yoNM\/s72-c\/superwoman1.jpg","height":"72","width":"72"},"thr$total":{"$t":"2"}}]}});